Him.

my boyfriend and I broke up last night. and I don't know what to do, I don't even want to breathe without him, I love him more than anything in the entire world and he wants to try to be friends but I don't know how to even hear his voice without telling him I love him.
We both just cry on the phone the whole time we talk. I love him and need him so much it's killing me. Inside and out.

China Town and Olivera Street

The day made me really down and I had a terrible outing with my family but I ended up taking some really amazing pictures and buying a suitcase that's huge for $25.00.

Santa Monica Bound

Yesterday my family and I took a trip to Venice Beach, 3rd Street, and the Santa Monica Pier. Overall it was a really fun day but, it wasn't much shopping. More of a walk and windowshop kind of adventure. I didn't get to take many pictures but it was actually really enjoyable. Going to China Town and Olivera Street today and pictures will be up, here are only a few from yesterday! 

Revlon ColorStay Whipped Foundation

Hey guys! So, I actually wanted to make a post about one of my recent buys that has definitely become one of my favorite drugstore products purchased probably ever. I've been looking for new products to buy for my make up collection that are long lasting, affordable, and are really just products I'm going to want to use every day. Foundation is one of the hardest things to buy where you are completely happy with the end result and didn't have to blow a ton of cash. I researched a bunch of products and I've tried out other drug store foundations such as the Fit Me collection or anything from Covergirl and nothing truly helped make my skin look smooth and finished without being either too liquidy or too cakey. A lot of gurus started raving about the new Revlon ColorStay Whipped Foundation and I thought to myself that before I cave and go buy a Mac Foundation for sixty dollars, I'll give drug store make up one last try and buy this product.

I bought the color 200 in Sand Beige for about $10.00 from my local Wall Mart about two and a half weeks ago and I have been using this product every single day since. The first time I applied it I actually used a bit too much, I did use my fingers and I dabbed a bit on both my cheeks, my chin, my forehead, my nose and I absolutely used too much. You don't have to use more than maybe two finger dabs worth for an entire face coverage. Once I grew more used to the product I started using it in smaller portions and it is not cakey, it leaves my skin feeling so smooth and finished. Also, since I'm still growing out of my teenage years, the foundation did not make me break out or even clog my pores; it simply did it's job and enhanced my true complexion. It feels like I'm not wearing any foundation at all. Also, Revlon sells this product by explaining it has a 24 hour hold and I'm not going to lie, I don't doubt it. It's the summer and foundations often sweat off or crinkle almost right bellow the eyes or around my laugh lines and this foundation left me smooth and glowing all day.

The foundation has .8 ounces of product inside and it's case is made out of glass but I already know that it's going to last for a very long time. I'm so glad that I didn't splurge for a more expensive foundation because as other reviews have said, this drug store product is just as good if not better. Do any of you have the Revlon ColorStay Whipped Foundation? Or what are some of your favorite foundation products?

Lunch Date and Shopping

Went to lunch with one of my best friends today and then on a trip to the mall. Picked up a couple of things.

Eye shadow Palette - E.L.F. 

Cardigan - Brandy Melville 

Browsed in Urban Outfitters and found a neutral eye shadow palette from Eyes Lips Face for only $5.00 so I decided to add it to my make up collection. This cardigan from Brandy Melville is a perfect layering piece; the material is warm and cozy but, I don't think the fabric is very machine washable. It was a valuable splurge item for $52.00. Brandy Melville is a new clothing store that has sparked a lot of attention from fashion gurus on youtube, blogspot, and even instagram. Everyone is checking out their indie boho style and emptying their wallets for the cool new store. 

Gentle Lion Boy

Brushed layers of fuzzy strands

form together and breathe life into your face

the tiny twists of each waving hair

envelopes your muscular build and

screams for love to swallow and fill

framed with lips that curl into a sideways glance

the toothy grin of a soldier fighting,

struggling, aching for the miles of

twisted lion curls to let your caged hunger free

colors of vibrations chuckle off of your molded grin

as the wildfire blooms

the lion’s smooth skin scruff with a line

traveling to the tip of an organ oh so sound

the ocean of growth travels from one field to the next

as your strong coating top creates a vibrant mare

the lion boy dances with my body’s delights

as his eyes full of fire lick my innocence away

hidden with shadows, thirsting for love,

let me pet your sweat ocean mist and give into it rough

oh the sweet lion boy, I cannot taste enough 

The Background Story

For fourteen years now I have been living in California and dreaming to go back to my neverneverland Austria; where I was born. I've made it a goal of mine to graduate and then move back to lovely Europe and find a new life there. It's mostly been all talk up until recently. I am graduating high school a year early this month and have officially booked my ticket back home to Graz, Austria for September 21, 2012. I won't be able to come back to the life I had for ten years and it's going to be a journey that will undoubtedly change everything. It's scary and new and I'm only seventeen years old. I'm leaving behind my family, my pets, and my boyfriend in hopes to find somewhere to truly belong. I will be documenting my adventure on this blog so that I'll be able to share not only with myself my journey but with anyone willing to read and follow along. A new beginning written in silly little posts and pictures. Welcome to my life.